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Divination
James Potter x f!reader
Summary: "You two have a intertwined future," the teacher says, her enigmatic smile deepening. "I see a boy... He'll wear glasses, like his father."
Warnings: just fluffy - a lovestruck and embarrassed James
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The scent of incense hangs heavy in the stifling Divination classroom, where the heat wraps around you like an invisible cloak. The dim light of scattered candles in ancient holders gives the room a mysterious air, and thick velvet curtains block out any sign of the outside world. Youâre seated beside James Potter, and between the two of you, at the center of the round table, a crystal ball rests silently, surrounded by a tattered book of Divination with yellowed pages.
Itâs been at least half an hour since you both started staring at the crystal ball, unable to see anything at all. Frustrated, James was the first to give up, throwing himself into the far more entertaining task of making up ridiculous stories about the future he âsawâ in the cloudy surface of the object.
âThere! Itâs as clear as day,â he says, dramatically pointing at the crystal ball with a mischievous grin. âYouâre going to be the first professional Quidditch player to bring a hippogriff onto the field. And Iâll, uh⌠obviously become the greatest dragon tamer the world has ever seen.â
You burst into laughter, trying to keep a straight face as he gestures like heâs actually wrangling an invisible dragon. âDidnât know your vision included being mauled by your own dragon,â you tease, and he chuckles, pushing his glasses up as he attempts to look offended.
Youâre still laughing when you notice the professorâs presence beside your table. She seems to materialize out of the shadows, her intense gaze flicking between you and James. Your laughter dies in your throat, and James straightens in his chair, still with a trace of a grin on his lips.
âEnjoying yourselves, I see,â the professor says, her low voice reverberating in the quiet space. She leans slightly forward, observing the crystal ball for a few seconds before turning her gaze back to you. The pause is long, almost uncomfortable, and when she finally speaks, the room seems to hold its breath along with you.
âYou two have an intertwined future,â she says, her enigmatic smile deepening. Her fingers brush lightly against your shoulder, a gesture almost maternal. âI see a boy⌠Heâll wear glasses, like his father.â
The silence that follows is deafening. It feels as though the entire world has frozen in that instant, the weight of her words hitting you like a gust of icy wind. When you finally summon the courage to glance at James, heâs already looking at you, his eyes wide, his expression a mix of surprise, embarrassment, and something else you canât quite place.
âWell⌠that was⌠interesting,â he says at last, breaking the silence with a voice deeper than usual. He attempts to laugh, but it comes out nervous, and his hand automatically moves to his neck, ruffling his already messy hair.
âInteresting is one word for it,â you murmur, trying to keep your voice steady. But your heart is pounding so fast it feels impossible he canât hear it.
For a moment that feels like an eternity, you hold each otherâs gaze. Jamesâs look is intense, almost unsettling, as though heâs trying to decipher something, like the future the professor mentioned is now written on your face.
âOur son, huh?â he finally says, his voice barely a whisper. He tries to smile, but itâs a hesitant one, laden with something that might be fear or anticipation. âHope he gets your good sense. Two of me would be a disaster.â
You laugh, despite the tension, and the sound seems to ease the air between you. âAnd I hope he doesnât inherit your knack for getting into trouble.â
He laughs too, and for a brief moment, everything feels normal again. But then the silence returns. James averts his gaze, staring at the crystal ball as if, suddenly, itâs the most fascinating thing in the world. You do the same, fixing your eyes on the open Divination book in front of you, though you canât read a single word.
And then, at the same time:
âI was thinking thatââ âDo you think sheââ
The words overlap, making both of you stop instantly. You look at each other, startled, before James starts to laugh nervously. You canât help but laugh too, covering your mouth with your hand as you feel heat rising to your cheeks.
âSorry,â he says, still chuckling, his eyes sparkling behind his glasses. âYou go first.â
âNo, you go,â you reply, the smile still playing on your lips.
âAlright, then.â He takes a deep breath, as if preparing for something big, but when he speaks, his voice comes out softer than you expected. âDo you think⌠she was serious?â
You hesitate, biting your lip as you consider the question. âI donât know. She seems so certain about everything, but⌠maybe itâs just one of those things she says to make an impression, you know?â
James nods, but his smile is small, almost uncertain. âYeah, probably. I mean, she did say Peter would marry a Merpeople, didnât she?â
You laugh again, the memory easing some of the tension. âAnd that Sirius would become Minister for Magic. He nearly cried from laughing so hard.â
âYeah, that does put things in perspective.â He laughs too, but the silence that follows feels different this time. Itâs not uncomfortable, but full of unspoken thoughts that seem to hang in the air between you.
âBut what ifâŚ?â you begin, your voice so quiet you canât believe you said it out loud.
James looks at you, his eyes narrowing slightly, as if heâs trying to figure out what you mean. âWhat ifâŚ?â he repeats, leaving the question hanging, and you feel your heart race.
âOh, forget it,â you say quickly, laughing nervously. âItâs just the professor and her absurd prophecies. No reason to take it seriously.â
âYeah, of course,â he agrees, but something in his voice makes you think heâs not entirely convinced.
The silence returns, and you canât help but let your mind wander. A little boy with Jamesâs messy hair and a pair of glasses slipping down his nose comes to mind, and without meaning to, you smile. The image is so sweet it almost makes your heart ache.
âWhat are you smiling at?â James asks, and you realize heâs looking at you again, his head tilted slightly.
âNothing,â you respond far too quickly, feeling heat rise to your face.
âDoesnât look like nothing,â he presses, his eyes gleaming with curiosity.
âItâs justâŚâ You hesitate, but Jamesâs smile is encouraging, even if he doesnât realize it. âI was thinking about what she said. About⌠a boy. And I was imagining⌠heâd look just like you, with messy hair and those glasses.â
James blinks, as though your words caught him completely off guard, and you feel the urgent need to fill the silence before it gets awkward. âNot that I think thatâs going to happen! Itâs just⌠well, the idea is funny, isnât it?â
âItâsâŚâ he starts, but then stops, rubbing the back of his neck as he looks away. When he speaks again, his voice is almost a murmur: âI think Iâd⌠maybe Iâd prefer a girl. Who looked like you.â
Time seems to stop. Youâre sure your heart skips a beat, and the silence that follows is so thick you could cut it with a knife.
Jamesâs eyes widen as if heâs just realized what he said. âI meanââ he begins, his voice an octave higher. âNot that⌠thatâs not what I meant! I just⌠ah, never mind.â
A smile tugs at the corners of your lips, and itâs impossible to hold it back. âA girl who looks like me, huh?â you tease, and his embarrassment is so endearing you almost forget your own.
âAlright, you win,â he says, throwing his hands up in surrender, but the smile he tries to hide says more than any words could. âI think the professor got to us. Weâre officially losing it.â
âYeah,â you agree, laughing, but inside, you know something has changed. Because, as absurd as it might seem, the idea of a shared future with James doesnât feel so impossible anymore.
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no thoughts- just Logan smoking some big ass cigar at any given moment.
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Deserve you | Drabble
Bucky x Reader
Word Count: 1.2k
Warnings: fluffffff
A/N: Heres the sweet one. đŤśđť debating on doing an angsty one lol Happy valentines day đ
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The first thing you notice when you wake up is warmth.
Not just the cozy kind from the blankets wrapped around you, but a warmth that settles deep in your chest, the kind that only comes from Bucky pressed up against your back, his arm draped lazily over your waist. The slow, steady rise and fall of his breath against your skin is hypnotic, anchoring you in the quiet, golden glow of early evening..
You both got back late or was it considered early from a stake out, not that it mattered.
Outside, the world is still and heavy with fresh snow, the soft hush of it settling against the windowsill. The setting sun filtering through the curtains casts everything in a muted glow, turning your shared space into something dreamlike, something sacred.
You shift slightly, and before you can get too far, a strong arm tightens around you, pulling you flush against his chest.
âMmm, donât move,â Bucky mumbles into your shoulder, his voice thick with sleep, gravelly in a way that makes something in your stomach flip.
A soft laugh escapes your lips as you lace your fingers through his, feeling the contrast of warmth and cool metal against your skin. âYou say that every time.â
ââCause itâs true,â he grumbles. His lips brush against the nape of your neck, a lazy, featherlight kiss that lingers longer than necessary. His smile is slow and content against your skin.
Itâs these moments that make your heart ache in the best way, the way he clings to you in the early hours, the sleepy, half-mumbled words that slip past his lips, the way he holds you like heâs afraid youâll disappear.
âYouâre warm,â he murmurs, lips grazing the shell of your ear.
âYouâre clingy,â you tease, though you donât move away. You never do.
His grip tightens just slightly, as if in silent agreement. ââSâonly âcause I love you.â
You feel those words settle inside you, low and deep, like they belong there. Like they were always meant to. No matter how many times he says it, it still sends a rush of warmth through your chest, still feels like something youâll never get tired of hearing.
You roll over, finally facing him, and your fingers reach up to smooth the dark strands of hair away from his forehead. He looks utterly at peace like this, eyes still heavy-lidded with sleep, but thereâs something else there too. Something softer. Something real.
âAnd I love you Bucky Barnes.â
âCan't believe that, never can.â His lips twitch into the laziest smile, the kind that makes your stomach flip, the kind he only ever gives you. His fingers trace slow, absentminded patterns along your spine, grounding himself in you, in this.
âStay in bed with me,â he whispers, barely brushing his lips against yours, stealing the words from your mouth before you can say them first.
You pretend to hesitate, to consider it but you both know the answer is already yes.
Because thereâs nowhere else youâd rather be than here, wrapped up in him.
And so, you stay.
His fingers trace gentle, meandering lines across your bare shoulder, his touch so impossibly light that it makes your skin hum. Heâs watching you again, really watching you. Like heâs memorizing every detail, like heâs trying to commit you to memory just in case this moment vanishes.
Thereâs something unspoken in his gaze, something heavy beneath the softness.
Then, barely above a whisper âI never thought I could have this.â
Your breath catches.
The words slip out like a confession, like theyâve been sitting on his tongue for a long time, waiting for the right moment to break free. His fingers still against your skin, as if speaking them aloud makes them real.
âBuckyâŚâ
His hand finds yours beneath the covers, his fingers lacing with yours like heâs afraid to let go. A sharp inhale, the kind that makes his chest rise and fall just a little too quickly.
âI spent so long thinkingâŚâ He swallows, eyes flickering downward, like he canât quite bring himself to look at you when he says it. âThinking I wasnât meant for this.â
The words are careful, like theyâre fragile, like heâs still afraid they might shatter in his hands.
âI always wanted this but after everything I knew, I felt like I wasnât supposed to have this.â His voice is quiet but firm, raw in a way that makes your heart twist. âThe lifetime with Hydra, the things I did⌠even after Steve got me out, I still felt likeââ He exhales sharply through his nose, jaw tightening. âLike I didnât deserve anything other than what Iâd already been given.â
You shake your head instinctively, already about to argue, but before you can, he squeezes your hand.
âSweetheart,â he murmurs, voice rough around the edges. âLet me finish.â
Thereâs no frustration, no sharpness, just quiet determination. He needs to get this out.
âYou changed that for me.â His voice wavers just slightly, his fingers coming up to cradle your face, thumb sweeping along your cheekbone with a tenderness that nearly undoes you. âYou make me feel like I deserve to be here. That I deserve more than just surviving. That I actually deserve you. That I deserve something even after everything that Iâhe did.â
His voice cracks, just a little.
And then, softer
âBut I would endure all of that again in any lifetime if it meant I got to have this with you.â
The air in your lungs disappears.
A single tear slips down his cheek before he can stop it, and for a moment, he looks almost embarrassed like heâs not used to being this vulnerable, this open. But you reach up before he can turn away, brushing the tear away with your thumb, letting your fingers linger on the rough stubble of his jaw.
âBecause you do deserve it, Bucky,â you whisper.
Your voice is steady, but the emotion behind it is anything but.
âYou deserve all of this. To be happy. To be loved. To wake up in the morning and not feel like you have to fight to exist.â Your fingers tighten in his hair as you hold him closer. âYou deserve to be here. With me.â
His throat bobs as he swallows hard, his blue eyes impossibly bright. But he doesnât look away.
He wonât look away.
âI love you so much,â he breathes, voice barely above a whisper.
A tear slips free, rolling slowly down the bridge of his nose, and you donât stop yourself from catching it with your lips as you press the softest, most reverent kiss to his cheek.
âI love you too.â
And then you kiss him.
Slow. Deep.
Like youâre trying to kiss away every dark thought, every lingering doubt, every cruel whisper that ever told him he was unworthy of love.
Bucky sighs into it, pulling you impossibly closer, like he wants to breathe you in, like he wants to carve this moment into eternity.
When you finally break apart, his nose nudges against yours, his lips brushing over your cheek, down to your jaw. His breath is warm against your skin as he murmurs, âI know we have that double date with Sam, but⌠just stay a little longer.â
You smile, pressing a lingering kiss to the corner of his mouth.
âIâm not going anywhere.â
A small pause. A soft, content sigh.
Then, in that same sleepy, gravelly voiceâŚ
âOh, by the wayâŚ.Happy Valentineâs Day, sweetheart.â
You laugh softly, shaking your head, pressing another kiss to his lips, just because you can.
âHappy Valentineâs Day, Bucky.â
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April fools just passed and so Iâm touching up inks for a lil marauders comic I made. I had to share a wip of my favorite panel. Theyâre so stupid <3
#I love these stupid boys#itâs a comic about the marauders revenge pranking Lucius because he cursed Lily#I love drawing Jamesâ square glasses#he looks so silly#Remus and Jamesâ hair changes in every drawing I can never settle on the length for those fluffy-head boys#its important to me that you know my James Potter is brown#poc James potter or nothing#dead gay wizards#anything for our moony#the marauders#marauders era#remus lupin#james potter#sirius black#my art <3#my art#digital art#procreate#sequential art#comic panels#peter pettigrew
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âacrossâ - Jegulus microfic - @into-the-jeggyverse - 276 words
Regulus is undeniably beautiful all the time. But one of Jamesâ favorites might be first thing in the morning, before heâs even woken up.
Thereâs a ray of sunlight shining across his raven black curlsâone of which has fallen onto his forehead just begging to be tucked behind his ear, but James wonât risk disturbing him. His forehead and eyebrows are relaxed and free of any worry or stress. His long eyelashes are resting peacefully on his cheeks. His lips are parted just the slightest bit, and his breathing is soft and steady. James could watch Regulus sleep for hours and never get bored.
âStop watching me sleep, itâs creepy.â Regulus mumbles without opening his eyes.
Jamesâ hand is like a magnet to that one curl now that he knows Regulus isnât fully asleep.
âIâm not watching you sleep. Iâm admiring your beauty.â James tells him as he tucks the curl behind his ear.
âWhile Iâm sleeping, so itâs still creepy.â Regulusâ soft, groggy morning voice is one of Jamesâ other favorite things.
âAre you awake now?â James asks as he leans in and kisses Regulus forehead.
âNo.â
James chuckles softly. âYouâre not?â
âNo. Go away.â Regulus mutter softly but he shifts slightly and moves his head to rest on Jamesâ chest.
âI canât really go away with you on top of me, love.â James wraps his arm around Regulus, pulling him in.
âShhh. âm sleeping.â Regulus snuggles impossibly closer.
âOkay.â James whispers and kisses the top of his curls.
Regulusâ breathing evens out quickly as he falls back to sleep. James squeezes him once before he drifts back to sleep right along with him.
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Hello lovely,
I saw your post that your requests are open, so I will give it a try =)
Imagine Bucky and reader are best friends but they have a huge argument and now they don't talk to each other for days. She's feeling really bad, missing him. He is her most important person and now without interacting with him for days, she's feeling lost and lonely and heartbroken. Maybe she has not a super power and is only a normal human, helping the Avengers with IT or something. Due to the argument with her best friend and not talking to Bucky (Bucky ignores her completely) she begins to feel it not only mental but also physically. She can't eat probably and at the end falls deathly sick.... With a fluffy happy ending and a worried and protective Bucky
Please. That would be nice.
Take care honey
oh my goodnessâ my heart đâ¤ď¸ the angst is gonna hurt, but iâm such a sucker for it. i had so much fun writing this one, thank you for requesting and i hope you like itđĽ°
Love Hurts
⥠Pairing: Beefy!Bucky Barnes x Fem!Reader
⥠Summary: You and Bucky get into a heated argument, things are said and done and now he wonât speak to you. You donât think you can handle him ignoring your existence.
⥠Warnings: language, mentions of buckyâs trauma, heavy angst, malnourishment, depression, anxiety/panic attacks, minor injuries, hospitalization, suicidal ideation, self hate, literally hurt just writing this
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MINORS DO NOT INTERACT | MATURE CONTENT 18+
Your nails bit into your palm, denting the fleshâ threatening to pierce the delicate skin. It was all to hold yourself back, distract you from the words that wanted to burst out.
It was becoming a sickening routine, Bucky was reckless and had yet another near death experience on his recent mission. The anxiety and the nerves stopping your body from functioningâ the dreaded wait for his jet to arrive back at the compound. You shouldnât have to be used of receiving the call that he had yet again made a reckless moveâ but you were starting to discover a pattern.
It did nothing to ease the panic that swirled in your chest every time he left for missions. Youâd sob, throwing up everything you had eaten that dayâ unable to stomach anything with the idea that Bucky was on a mission. You never found your anxiety to be so severeâ but when Bucky was even mentioned about going on a mission⌠it spiked.
Thatâs where you found yourself in his room, watching him pace the spaceâ avoiding your frustrated stare. You werenât angry at him per sayâ you were angry that he didnât value his life.
âSeriously (Y/n)â you get so worked up over nothing. Iâm here and aliveâ isnât that enough?â He exclaimed, throwing his hands up in frustration.
You pressed your nails tighter to your palm, yet the pain couldnât stop your thundering thoughts.
âYouâre here and alive now, until you do some stupid shit like this again and are dead!â You hissed, trying to keep your voice low but you didnât know how much longer you could control yourself.
He glared at you, squinting his eyes in anger and then rolling his eyes.
âOh for fucks sakeâ can you stop fucking babying me? I can handle myself!â He raised his voice, his metal arm whirring.
âIâm not babying youâ Iâm just scared youâre gonna get yourself killed. Do you care about your life at all?â You asked him aggressively, your voice raising just a tad.
He took a long pause, staring at you with his face void of emotionâ only annoyance.
âNot really.â He admitted.
You were taken back, although you had these conversations with him a time or twenty. It was an ongoing process to get him to slowly love himselfâ his past as The Winter Soldier torturing his soul. He was so convinced he wasnât deserving of anything, not even a roof over his head. It was a struggle to help him, but you werenât going to give up on him.
âYou realize if anything ever happened to you Iââ Your voice broke, needing a breath, âBuck I wouldnât know what to do with myself.â
You thought you saw his eyes flash with guilt, but before you could linger on the look for too longâ his face was hardening again.
âThat doesnât sound like my problem.â He mumbled out, making your eyes widen.
You were extremely taken back from those words, your chest aching painfullyâ him not knowing what effect those words had on you.
âAre you fucking serious?â You asked him, your face morphing into a hurt expression, mixed with anger. âCan you just do your job without trying to kill yourself?â
His face grew red with rage and he was stomping up towards youâ his face inches from yours.
âI am doing my jobâ very well in fact. Unlike you who just fucking sits here doing nothing!â He defended himself, his breath hitting your face in warm pants.
âDoing nothing? Buckâ why are you like this?â You puffed your chest, not backing down from his towering form.
But your words seemed to have hit a nerve, as he shrunk back slightly, narrowing his gaze at you.
âLike what?â
You furrowed your brows, slowing your racing heart from the shoutingâ you werenât sure you had said anything bad. Did you?
âWhat?â You squeaked out, nervous now.
âYou said, why am I like this⌠like what?â He pushed, stepping closer to you now, his face still red with anger but you could see the hurt in his eyes.
You swallowed and wondered how to convince him you didnât mean anything bad by what you said. But you were almost positive it would be an impossible task to get Bucky to listen.
âBuck, I didnât mean anythinââ
âWhatâ you think Iâm not capable of doing my job? You think Iâm still the monster hydra made me?â He spat, his chest rising and falling quicker.
âNo, no Buck listenââ
That was definitely not what you meant, you could tell he was spiraling and you were still confused as to why. You would never make him think that.
âAfter 70 fucking years I finally have a job that I likeâ that I enjoy doingâ I fucking help people! Iâm finally doing some good and now youâre telling me Iâm not capable of doing it?â He boomed, his chest puffing into yours and your stumbled back slightly. âYou think Iâm only capable of being a monster? Huh? Is that what you fucking think?â
You were growing scared now, the look in his eyes wild with something and you didnât like how close he was to youâ you knew heâd never hurt you but your fear overwhelmed your senses.
âFridayâ call Steve and Sam in here now!â You shouted into the room, and Buckyâs eyes squinted painfullyâ his metal arm whirring again.
Bucky only saw one thingâ you didnât reassure him that he was thinking irrationally. You didnât correct him that he wasnât the monster. Instead you called for help, that you were clearly scaredâ because you thought he was a monster.
He was at a loss for words and just stared at you, almost through youâ as his breathing was only getting heavier at the sight of your fearful eyes.
Not even minutes later, Steve and Sam were busting through the door, taking in the scene and separated you and Bucky.
âHeyâ whatâs going on?â Steve asked in between the two of you. âBuck, whatâs wrong man?â
You couldnât seem to find the words and just stood speechless as wellâ the fight startling you. This was one of the worst ones, and it was also one that still left you confused. You cursed yourself for not being careful enough with your wordsâ but it was almost impossible to get through to him when he was on the brink of having an episode.
Sam walked closer to you, his facing morphing into concern as he took in your shocked expression.
â(Y/n)? You okay? Did he hurt you?â Sam whispered, keeping his words only between you two.
You slowly shook your head but still didnât respond verbally.
âOkay, okay thatâs good. You wanna go get a drink from downstairs? Why donât we take a breather okay?â Sam suggested softly, big brother mode kicking in at the sight of your frazzled state.
Without another word, you left the room with Samâ missing the devastated look from Bucky.
Steve waited until the door shut, then his attention was back on Bucky.
âBuck, you gotta talk to me manâ what happened?â He asked softly, watching his friend slowly relax, but it wasnât from being in a relaxing moodâ his body and mind were just exhausted from the argument.
âI fucked everything up. Thatâs what happened.â He mumbled, turning away from Steve to sit on the edge of his bed.
Steve followed behind but stood in front of him, shaking his headâ ready to argue.
âYou didnât mess anything up, arguments happen. You guys will work it out. I know how much you mean to each other.â Steve pointed out, watching Buckyâs face unchanging.
âYou didnât see the way she looked at meâ sheâs scared of me Iââ He shuttered, his breath shaky as he remembered your look, âI fucking scared her.â
Steveâs chest ached, the state of his friend breaking his heart. He knew Bucky meant no harm, and he almost for a fact knew that you knew that too. But Bucky for sure didnât believe that himself.
âI didnât see what you saw, but I can guarantee you that sheâs not afraid of you. This is (Y/n) we are talking about. You are her world Buck.â Steve tried to convince him.
Bucky shook his head, running his flesh hand through his hair.
âI think I just need to stay away from her for awhile.â Bucky came up with instead.
Steve immediately started shaking his head, knowing that was the last thing he needed.
âBucky Iââ
âPlease Steve⌠I just need some space.â Bucky pleaded, his body sagging in exhaustion.
Steve couldnât find it in himself to argue with him anymore about this. Maybe he did need some time to himself, to cool down and gather his thoughts. Also Steve wasnât going to force him to anything ever. After the years his pal went throughâ he would never make him do anything. He had enough things decided for him, and Steve wasnât about to stoop to hydraâs level.
Meanwhile down in the kitchen, Sam was getting you a glass of waterâ standing across from your seated form at the island. He slid the cup across, sending a worried glance at you.
â(Y/n)?â Sam snapped his fingers getting your attention.
You were shaken from your state of staring, but even snapped out of the tranceâ the anxieties still swirled within you.
âYeah sorry⌠Iâm here.â You whispered, grabbing the glass and taking a tiny sip.
Sam gave you a quizzical expression, watching you start to slip back into a mindless stareâ so he spoke up.
âYou wanna tell me what happened?â He asked, genuinely curious what had went down.
He knewâ hell everyone knew you and Bucky were extremely close. Best of friends, always there for one anotherâ dancing on the line of strictly friends to lovers. Truthfully, Sam found it completely obnoxious and just wanted you two together already.
âI donât really know⌠I think I said the wrong thingâ I didnât mean to make him upset.â You confessed, keeping your eyes on the countertop, not risking a glance to Sam.
âHey, donât beat yourself upâ mistakes happen. Iâm sure heâll forgive you.â Sam told you.
You shook your head, gripping the cup tighter.
âGod I hope so⌠I donât know what Iâd do without him.â You whispered pathetically, tears welling in your eyes.
Sam reached out to rub your arm comfortingly, trying to relax you so you didnât start crying. He hated to see you cryâ made his heart hurt.
âItâs been a long day for everyone, why donât you go head upstairs and get some sleep. Iâm sure things will have blown over by tomorrow.â He suggested and you finally met his gaze, smiling weakly and nodding.
Without saying goodbye, you stood up and headed to your room. Taking Samâs words and playing them on repeat in your head.
Tomorrow is another day, tomorrow would be better.
God had you hoped that was the caseâ it only was the beginning on the torment.
You had slept in longer than usual, but overall felt refreshed. The first thing that came to mind when fully waking up was Bucky. Immediately you headed downstairs to find himâ needing to talk with himâ apologize.
Making it down to the kitchen, you let out a breath you didn't know you were holding in at the sight of him sitting at the islandâ sipping at his coffee. You furrowed your brows, thinking he'd be done with his coffee by now, since you had slept in. Your chest ached with guilt with the possibility that he didn't sleep well.
You took a deep breath before making yourself known, although you were sure be could sense you in the roomâ considering he was a super soldier.
"Morning Buck." You announced, walking around the island so you could face him.
He kept his gaze down at his coffee, finding the cup more interesting than you.
Okay, thatâs fair. You thought, you most probably deserved that reaction.
âYou sleep okay?â You asked again, picking at the skin on your nails nervously.
Againâ he didnât even lift his head. In fact, he wasnât even acknowledging you. You waited several minutes for a response, the silence becoming thick with tension and you couldnât stand it.
âBucky?â You tried, and this time he lifted his head.
Your heart twinged in your chest at his bloodshot eyes, clear evidence that he hadnât gotten good sleep. You hated yourself for causing him the stress, especially knowing he was just starting to actually get hours of sleep. It was huge progress compared to his nights either screaming awake or just staring at the walls. But now you had to go and ruin all that progress. You felt sick to your stomachâ disgusted with yourself.
âIâm really sorry about last night⌠I didnât like how ugly it got and Iâm sorry if I said something to upset youâ you know Iâd never intentionally hurt you.â You told him, picking more aggressively at your nails, causing to nail beds to bleed.
You swallowed nervously when he didnât answer right away, instead staring at you with⌠what was that? Disgust? You didnât know, but you hated the look altogether.
âBucky, please say something.â You pleaded.
Bucky lowered his gaze to his coffee again, taking a minute before he stood up and looked your way.
âI just need some space.â He told you quietly.
You were relived to have him finally talk to you, but to hear him suggest space between you twoâ you could almost feel the knife digging into your chest. You tried to keep a neutral expression but otherwise felt your bottom lip quiver.
Without giving you time to respond, Bucky was walking out of the roomâ leaving you standing there speechless, lungs begging for air. You didnât want your mind to go immediately to that thought, but you couldnât ignore it eitherâ he hated you.
âHey babe, I need you to help me out in the lab todââ Tony came busting into the room, but immediately shut up once he saw your broken expression. âHoney, whatâs wrong? You alright?â
You nodded your head, lying to him and yourself and started waving him off with the fakest smile.
âYeahâ yeah Iâm good. Just need to uhâ need to get some things done.â You told him, your eyes darting all around the room, the familiar feeling of panic seeping into your being.
Tony gave you a âreally?â look and stepped closer to you.
â(Y/n) Iâm not blindâ I can see youâre upset. Talk to mââ
âSeriously Tonyâ Iâm fine! Just leave it alone!â You told him a little too aggressively.
His face was taken back and you felt guilty immediately, cursing yourself for hurting everyone.
Why are you such a fucking issue? Your mind screamed at you.
You didnât waste another second and sped walked out of the room, needing to calm yourself down before you ran into any one else. You were spiraling and you needed to just relaxâ take a deep breath. Maybe you just needed one more day and things would be back to normal.
Yeah⌠just one more day.
You had hoped that was the case as well⌠but as alwaysâ things only got worse.
Bucky refused to talk to you or even look at you. Heâd given you the cold shoulder for almost two weeks now. He would get up and leave the second you entered the room. He couldnât stand you it seemed.
You couldnât keep hiding your hurt. At first, you had done a good job at hiding how you were really feeling. Saving the sobbing and attacks for when you were alone in your room. As the days lingered on, you found yourself weak and drainedâ you didnât have enough energy to put up a charade anymore.
The whole team were sending you worried looks, and attempted to talk with you. But the second theyâd tryâ youâd bolt. The subject was too sensitive, too raw. You didnât want to talk to anyone but Buckyâ and he hated you.
You had missed so many meals, forgetting to eat with your mental struggles throughout the days. You had been getting no more than two hours of sleep. You were so stressed, so stuck in your own mind that you couldnât function. Even when you had managed to remember to eat, your stomach would knot up to the point that you were throwing everything up. You were gaunt, basically a real life zombie. You needed helpâ but you needed Bucky more.
You were laying in bed staring unknowingly into space, it had been hard to focus with no food or sleep in your systemâ so you had only managed to lay here. Even that was exhausting, no matter how much you laid aroundâ your mind wouldnât stop the assault. Your anxiety had never been this bad, you were a prisoner to it.
Knocking at your door had you jumping, your heart racingâ and for a moment you forgot where you were.
Youâre in the compound⌠yeah thatâs right.
You slowed your breathing and swung your legs sluggishly over the edge of the bed to answer it. You werenât prepared for the sudden dizzy spell, your vision spotting with black and white specks. You tried to blink it off, but suddenly you were toppling to the ground.
You fell to the floor with a loud thump, luckily landing on your front, your hands somehow catching most of your fallâ you could already feel the throbbing in your palms.
You didnât hear the persistent knocking, or the door open. You didnât even hear the voice speaking from the doorway. It was when a hand landed on your shoulder that you were gasping, forgetting your surroundings once again.
Your eyes met Steveâs and you swore your heart was about to beat out of your chest.
â(Y/n) are you alright?â He asked you, hovering his hands over youâ not sure what you had hurt.
You furrowed your brows, looking him over.
âSteve what are⌠what are you doing here?â You asked genuinely confused.
You watched Steveâs eyes widen and he swallowed nervouslyâ his expression growing more concerned.
â(Y/n) itâs okay⌠Iâve got you.â Steve hushed, and he was pulling you into his chest, hugging you protectively.
You were still confused but then you tasted one of your stray tears, and you immediately came to your senses. You were crying in Steveâs arms⌠but why? You were having gaps of time missing from you, this wasnât the first time this had happenedâ you just didnât seem to care.
âSteve⌠my head hurts.â You slurred into his chest, sagging against him.
You were grateful that he was here, you desperately needed someone around. You were just hoping that someone wouldâve been Bucky.
âOkay, letâs get you to Helen. Sheâs gonna take care of you, okay?â Steve asked you, and you could only give a weak nod.
He knew there was no way you were walking there, so he hoisted you up into his arms, and cradled your head as he started to the med bay.
You just stared blankly at his chest, not really caring if Steve were to throw you off the roof of the building. You just didnât care.
Steve had gotten you down to her, and she checked you out. Alerting Steve that you were extremely malnourished, dehydratedâ an insomniac. She kept listing off all the things Steve was afraid to hear. The whole time he was sure you didnât hear a thing, although you were in the roomâ you were just checked out.
Helen eventually left, and Steve took his opportunity to speak with you. He pulled up a chair next to the hospital bed and grabbed your hand.
â(Y/n), whatâs going on? You can talk to meâ you canât keep doing this to yourself. Please⌠just talk to me.â Steve whispered, pleading with you that you would stop torturing yourself.
âHe hates me.â You mumbled.
Steveâs eyes widened and he frowned, knowing what you meant. He knew he let this go on for too long.
â(Y/n) he doesnât hate you. He just needed time to himself, so he coââ
âI didnât mean to hurt his feelings, I donât even know what I said to hurt him but Iââ You rushed out, the heart monitor beeping frantically, âIâm a horrible person, I didnât mean toâ I didnât mean to!â
You wheezed out, clutching your chest as you couldnât catch your breath. Your cheeks glistened with a steady stream of tears, your wheezing only growing by the second.
âOkay, okay (Y/n)â I need you to slow your breathing. Youâre okay, he doesnât hate you. Just take deep breaths okayâ even if you canât just try. Iâm here.â He tried to coach you, but this wasnât his thing.
Now he was starting to get mad at his friend, Bucky shouldnât of let this go on for this long.
You followed his chest rising and falling, staring at him as he tried to calm you down. Your breaths were heavy and painful sounding. Steve was about to say something but stopped himself when he saw your eyes look behind him.
He turned and saw Bucky standing in the doorwayâ his face paled. Truthfully, he looked like he was going to be sick.
â(Y/n)?â He whispered, his heart breaking at your state.
He had ran into Helen in the kitchen and was informed of your conditionâ he didnât believe it and had to see for himself. He was shocked to find you like this.
Your tears only edged on from his appearance and you shook your head in shame.
âIâm sorry Bucky! Whatever I did, Iâm sorry!â You sobbed and Bucky ran to the bed, kneeling down and taking your hands into his.
âDoll itâs okay, youâre okay. Iâm hereâ Iâm here. Iâm not gonna leave you⌠Iâm sorry.â He rushed out, shushing your cries, watching you slow your breathing at his words. âThere we go, just keep breathing with me. Iâm here, youâre okay.â
He kept repeating himself, making sure you knew he wasnât going anywhere.
Steve knew you were in good hands and slowly snuck out of the roomâ knowing you two needed to talk.
Bucky tucked a stray piece of hair behind your ear, letting his fingers trail down your cheek to your jaw. You couldnât help the way your face leaned into his touch, it felt like it had been forever since the last one.
Your breathing had slowed down, and now you just stared up at himâ eyes glossy with more tears. You felt so many emotions. You felt relived, but also angry and hurt. Above allâ you needed to know what you did to upset him. The guilt still ate away at your heart, and even just the memory of the argument had your chest aching.
âWhat did I do?â You whispered, making his eyes shoot up to yours, concern painting his face.
âYou didnât do anything.â He told you, and you furrowed your brows.
You were still anxiousâ he hadnât answered your question. Even more soâ if you didnât do anything then why did he ignore you?
âThen why?â
âWhy what (Y/n)?â He dared to ask, and you scoffedâ ripping your hands out of his.
The anger was approaching.
âWhy did you shut me out?â You wondered, and he only let his eyes cast down to the bedâ making you angrier. âYou ignored me for two weeks! Two fucking weeks you just acted as if I didnât exist! Do you know how much that fucking hurts?â
You were breathing heavy again, but this time it wasnât from panicâ it was the full force of all your anger bursting out.
He lifted his eyes to you, and you saw how broken he looked. How your state had affected him.
âI could never do that to you Buckâ I would never do that to you! Youâre my everything! I donât trust anyone as much as I trust you!â You raised your voice, while he stayed silent. âIf I didnât do anything then why would youâ whyââ
You broke out into a sob, covering your face with your hands. You felt good getting all the built up anger outâ but now you felt extremely guilty. The pitiful face of Bucky staring at you, causing your heart to hurt all over again. It didnât matter what happened, you always ended up hurting others.
â(Y/n) Iâm so sorry Iâ god I fucked up. I didnât ever mean to hurt you, please know that. Youâre my other half, and no one has ever been there for me like you have.â He spoke through a tight throat, swelling with emotion.
You uncovered your face and just stared at him a little longer, still incredibly hurt from his actionsâ but you knew you couldnât stay mad at him. You so badly wanted to forgive and forgetâ and just wrap him in your arms like you both needed.
âItâs hard to explain whatâs wrong with me to someone when I donât even understand whatâs wrong with meâ I just know Iâm fucked up. Iâm broken beyond repair.â His voice broke, his own eyes welling with tears.
You didnât have it in you to keep up an angry facade, and so you reached out and took his hand in yours. His face almost immediately lit up, his breathing slowing at your touch.
âTry me.â You whispered, watching Bucky take a deep breath before he spoke again.
âThe night of our fightâŚâ He started, and you swallowed in having to remember that night. âI had never seen you look at me like that.â
You stayed silent, afraid to open your mouth and have a sob escape. You could feel it bubbling upâ the memory playing back through your mind.
âYou looked at me like you were scared. You looked at me like I was a monster.â He confessed and it all made sense to you now.
It wasnât about what you said, it was your reaction that disturbed him to no ends. Even if you couldnât control your reaction in the momentâ you still felt guilty for causing him pain of remembering the hydra days.
âOh BuckâŚâ You whimpered, trying to pull him closeâ but he pulled away before he could reach your embrace.
âNoâ you donât get to be nice to me after what I did. I promised I would never hurt you and I didâ youâre in here because of me! I donât deserve your forgiveness!â He raised his voice, and you werenât scared of himâ just concerned.
âI wasnât scared of you Bucky, you just caught me off guard. Things were heatedâ Iâm not afraid of you and I most definitely donât think youâre a monster.â You tried to convince him.
âI really hope youâre not lying because if you were afraid of me⌠god I donât know what Iâd do. If you never wanted to see me againâ thatâs fine. Whatever you want, but I canât live knowing youâre afraid of me.â He whimpered out.
âI wouldnât lie to you.â
He nodded his head, knowing damn well youâd never lie. That was one thing he loved about youâ you were so honest. Keeping it real with him, even if he didnât wanna hear it. He could count on you for the truth.
âI still donât deserve your forgiveness.â He argued.
âWell too bad, Iâm forgiving you anyway.â You finally told him and he felt his chest expand.
Like he could finally breath.
âWhy?â He wondered.
You knew it was the line you two had been dancing on foreverâ but you knew if there was ever a time to say it. It was now.
âBecause I love you.â You admitted quietly.
His eyes widened just slightly, and his breath stuttered. He had always had a feeling what you two had was more than friends, he just never spoke up about it. Of course he loves you tooâ god he loves you so much. Thatâs why the thought of you being scared of him was enough to pull him away. He couldnât bear being around you if you were frightened by him. He couldnât live with himself. More importantly he now discovered, he really couldnât live without you.
âI love you so much.â He confessed back as your tears leaked down your cheeks.
You pulled his arm, and he let you pull him to the bedâ close enough where you could cup both his cheeks.
âDonât ever do that to me again, please. I need you Buckyâ life is not livable without you.â You cried, kissing his forehead to which he leaned into your lips.
âNever againâ I promise.â
This time, he wouldnât break it.
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deaf regulus and coda james. deaf regulus who used to get so sad when sirius would go on long rants about the muggle music his friends listened to that he would never be allowed to himself, even if they did a hearing spell. deaf regulus who gets awful migraines when he uses magic to be able to hear. coda james who sees all of this and has the desperate need to make regulus happy. coda james who sits with regulus and sings the songs he wants to hear with regulus' fingers pressed to his adam's apple so he can enjoy the vibrations of the songs without harming himself
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"The Horse" a microfic based on once again, a not easy prompt by @sixlane and supported by @velanavis
âYou named the horse?â Regulus questioned.
âOf course! He deserves a name!â James assured him.
âJames,â Regulus scowled.
âWhat?â
âHeâs a non-living thing.â
James gasped and quickly covered the horseâs ears. âYou take that back right now!â
âBaby, itâs a stuffed animal,â Regulus said, taking the toy from Jamesâ hands.
With a frown, James snatched it back. âI never say anything about Whiskers.â
âThatâs because heâs an actual, living, breathing animal.â Regulus loved Jamesâ heart, he really did, but he also knew James was stubborn. This wasnât about the toy; it was about the âprinciple,â as James had put it.
He acted annoyed, but Regulus cherished every moment with Jamesâeven the ridiculous ones.
âOkay, but Patitas has feelings,â James pouted, stroking the back of the toy horse.
âAnd how will you feel when Patitas leaves our home because itââ
âHe, not it,â James interrupted.
Regulus sighed, ââbecause he is actually a gift for Luna.â
âThatâs fine; Iâll visit him when Harry goes on playdates,â James replied proudly.
Regulus nodded, sliding closer to James. âYouâre absurd, you know that?â
âYes, I do. Now, will you give me a kiss?â
Regulus closed his eyes and leaned over to kiss James, only to be met with the soft fur of the stuffed animal against his lips. He opened his mouth to protest, but James quickly set the toy aside and pulled Regulus close to kiss him.
âI love you,â James whispered.
âI love you too.â Regulus picked up the toy. âNow, letâs go. Weâre late.â
#this one took me forever to figure out#but it's cute and fluffy#and they are so unserious i love them#james will actually go anything to annoy regulus because he thinks he looks really hot when he's arguing with james#wives tag <3#james potter x regulus black#james and regulus#james potter#james x regulus#regulus x james#regulus and james#regulus black#regulus arcturus black#regulus black x james potter#jegulus#jegulus microfic#hp marauders#starchaser#sunseeker#james fleamont potter#rab#fjp#marauders#harry potter#marauders era#marauders fandom#fanfic#harry potter marauders#the marauders#marauders harry potter
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"Ball" - Black Brothers/Jegulus microfic - 937 words
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It didnât take a genius to figure out why Remus had all his scars, why he and his friends were busy every full moon. After realising that Remus was a werewolf, Regulus understood quickly what his friends had done to help him. He decided to do some research into becoming an animagus, and at first, it was just to understand how his brother, James, and Peter had done it. He had no desire to become an animagus himself, really. But he grew curious, eager. It was a long process, yes, but he could do it.Â
So, on a full moon, he put a mandrake leaf in his mouth, which he would have to keep there until the next month. He collected everything else he would need with the help of Pandora, the only person he had told his plan.Â
Regulus stopped Sirius outside the Great Hall after the following full moon. âSirius, can I talk to you?â Regulus asked, his voice coming out smaller than he had intended.
âUh, yeah, sure,â Sirius replied with a nod, waving his hand for James, Peter, and Remus to go inside. âWhatâs up?â
âDonât laugh,â Regulus started nervously, âbut IâmâŚIâm trying to become an animagus. And I know you and your friends already are, and I wanted your help.â
Siriusâs eyes widened. âI donât know what you mean, we, uh, we arenâtâŚâ
âSirius,â Regulus sighed. âI know you are, Iâm not an idiot. And I know that Remus is a-â Regulus looked around, remembering that they were in public. âWell, I know what he is.â
Sirius gaped at him further, looking worried. He seemed, for a moment, as though he might argue, but instead took a deep breath and gave in. âFine. Iâll write down the steps.â
âIâve already done it all. I just,â Regulusâs voice became an embarrassed murmur, âI wanted you to be there when I, um, transformed.â
Siriusâs concerned frown turned into a grin, and he tried to ruffle his brotherâs hair. Regulus sidestepped and glared at him, though Sirius wasnât deterred.Â
Regulus regretted asking him for help, though, when he transformed the next day and it turned out his animagus was a tiny black kitten. When he managed to become human again, Sirius was clutching his stomach and laughing like a maniac.
âItâs not that funny!â Regulus grumbled.
Sirius didnât seem to agree.
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Quite soon after becoming an animagus, Regulus found that it was much more comfortable for him to be a cat than a human being. Maybe it was because he was always trying to make himself smaller anyway; maybe because, as a cat, he could just hiss at anyone who came too close, which was not âsocially acceptableâ for a person.
Regulus sat outside the Gryffindor common room one day, and followed after a student as they stepped inside the portrait. He had intended to talk to his brother, but once inside he found Sirius, James, and Marlene all sitting by the fire. He walked over and curled up by Siriusâs legs, not wanting to disturb his brother's evening.
âAw, look at him!â James nearly shouted, leaning down to stroke Regulus.
âDonât, James,â Marlene warned, âI tried to pet him the other day and he scratched me. Heâs evil.â
âHeâs not evil, Marls,â James frowned, scratching behind the catâs ears. âHeâs a little ball of fluff.â
James picked the cat up and set him on his lap, stroking him absent-mindedly as he continued his conversation with Marlene. Sirius, however, glared at the small black cat. If anyone else had tried that, Regulus would have hissed or bitten them. Regulus was sure, as Sirius looked between him and James suspiciously, that he knew.
It became a habit for Regulus, going into the Gryffindor common room and sitting with James. Everyone else was confused as to why the little black cat hated everyone but him, and James took pride in this.Â
âWhat do you think I should call him?â James asked his friends, the cat nuzzling his face.Â
âLeo,â Sirius scoffed.Â
James didnât hear the sarcasm in his tone, and held the cat a few inches from his face. âLeo!â
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âRegulus,â Sirius called.
Regulus tried to walk away, pretending not to have heard him, but Sirius caught his arm before he could. He dragged him to an empty corner of the hallway, trying to catch Regulusâs eye.Â
âYouâre in love with him,â Sirius stated. Regulusâs mouth opened and closed, searching for a defense. He couldnât find any. âItâs okay, you know,â Sirius said, softer now. âBut I wish you would have told me.â
âThought youâd laugh,â Regulus mumbled. âItâs stupid.â
âNah, itâs not. I mean, I probably would have laughed, yeah, but itâs not stupid.â
Regulus rolled his eyes, and he would never admit that knowing Sirius wasnât annoyed felt like a weight being lifted off his shoulders. Steeling himself, Regulus clenched his jaw and fixed Sirius with a glare.
âIf you tell him, Sirius, I swear I will pull your fucking teeth out,â Regulus threatened.Â
âYeah, whatever you say, loverboy,â Sirius grinned, walking away.Â
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It was months before Regulus built up the courage to confess. He was looking everywhere but Jamesâs eyes as he wondered how to phrase this.Â
âI know what youâre going to say,â James smiled down at him.
âYou do?â Regulus asked, taking a deep, shaky breath.
âYouâre Leo,â James declared, seeming proud of his discovery.
Regulus tried to form words, though was momentarily stunned. âThatâs not- I was going to tell you I was in love with you, but how did you know about-â
âYouâre in love with me?!â
#regulus's animagus is a little black kitten and he's fluffy and adorable#this was the jegulus's prompts but it feels more black brothers tbh#regulus black#james potter#jegulus#starchaser#sunseeker#jegulus microfic#black brothers microfic#marauders microfic#microfic#sirius black#black brothers#marauders#marauders era#phoe writes#phoe's favs
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hi love! idk if you are interested or not but i had an idea of reader being friends with lilly and severus but also with the marauders untill the oh so fateful day were sev ruined his friendship with lilly and reader. i love the idea of lilly ending up in james's arms and reader in sirius's (they are my boys sorry sevđ¤)
thank you and again, only if you want! have a wonderful day lovely!
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Severus Snape was resting against a tree when it happened. The castle sat opposite him, just a short way across the clear water. The small ripples created by the creatures in the lake and the summer breeze often distracted him from the book that he rested between his knees and his chest as he tucked them up closely. It was this exact reason that he hadn't noticed the band of robe-clad gryffindors trudging up the slope toward him. James Potter led the group, he wore his signature charismatic grin; a smirk that twinged the corner of his lip upwards and made his nose scrunch beneath his glasses, and he had his wand held loosely in his hand. He twisted the delicate tool between his fingers as you would a drumstick. Sauntering over to Severus, he chuckled at his friends, nudging them playfully with his shoulder.Â
âSnape!â He jested, calling out to him.Â
His head snapped up, but he kept his back planted firmly against the tree as the group of marauders ran up to him. He squeezed his eyes shut, just hoping that they would turn and leave. But they were bored and Severus, who had been particularly troublesome toward them, had caught their eyes. Severus inched himself up against the tree so that he rose to his feet and began to turn back in the direction of the castle.Â
James frowned, a look of mock pity set on his face. âLeaving already, Snivellus?â
Snape reached for his wand, but kept his back to them. âFuck off, Potter. I donât want trouble.â
âDonât you know itâs rude to turn your back to someone when theyâre talking to you, Snape.â Sirius asked him.Â
Severus whipped around quickly, his wand poised to cast a spell at them but James beat him to it; with one flick of his hand Snape's wand went flying across the river bank. He paled, the four Marauders stepping closer to him.Â
âNice one, James.â Sirius cheered.Â
The dark haired boy backed up slowly, setting his gaze. The four of them were edging closer, threatening him with their wands when you spotted them. You had just finished class and were heading over to the lake with Lily, arm in arm. The two of you were over there in seconds when you saw your friends threatening each other. Much to your boyfriend's dismay, you and Severus had been friends from the beginning of the first year. You met him on the train; a shy boy with long hair who didnât quite seem certain of the world. Lily bonded with him quickly, and you followed soon after. It wasnât long after that that you met Sirius Black. Charming, brave, daring; he was the complete opposite to Snape, but you supposed that was what drew you to him so much. It was their clash in personalities that made the two clash. It seemed as though they were always doing something to wind up the other.
This time it had gone too far. You were unsure of what Sev had done to wind up the Marauders so much, but you and Lily were skidding to a stop beside them in a heartbeat.Â
James caught a glimpse of Lilyâs fiery hair out of the corner of his eye. âLilyflower-â
âLeave him alone, James.â It wasnât quite a demand, Lily never had that sort of aggressiveness in her, but her voice was firm. She didnât want her friend to get hurt.Â
âAh, Evans, Donât make me hex you.â James sighed, a playful twinge on his tongue.
âIâm serious.â Lily repeated when James refused to lower his wand, letting it loll around between his fingers.Â
âNo,â Sirius smirked. âI am.â
You gave him a hard stare through narrow eyes, and his smirk dropped. âSiri. Please.â
The boy nodded, nudging his friend who promptly pocketed his wand. Severus seemed taken back, his steps faltering. He glanced gratefully in your direction, though his anger and embarrassment were unmistakable in his eyes.Â
âYouâre lucky that they were here to help you, Snape.â
âI donât need help from filthy mudbloods.â
You had expected many things from Severus, but those words were not one of them. He spat them with venom; malice intending to bite deep. And bite deep it did.Â
You froze, eyes glassing over with tears. Serverus Snape had made an incredibly low blow; as a muggleborn, it was safe to say that it took some time to come to terms with your letter to Hogwarts. You were excited, of course but your parents were far from keen. Lily experienced the same thing with her sister too. Things didnât get much better when you arrived at Hogwarts either. Some saw you as âimpureâ. Unworthy. Sev knew this and he had chosen to use it against you. Perhaps it was in a moment of spite, perhaps he hadnât meant to say it at all. But all that mattered in that moment was that Severus Snape was just like the rest of them.  Â
You could see Sirius glance your way out of the corner of your eye, but when he took a step toward you you backed away.Â
âFuck you, Snape.â You spat back at him, trying to hide the waver in your voice.Â
âYou should watch your mouth, Snivellus.â Lily glared at him before turning on her heel and making her way promptly back to the castle before anyone else could say a word.Â
You were left standing between the two groups, both slightly shell shocked, in silence.
Sirius, now full of guilt, opened his mouth to talk, but you pursued Lily before he could even form the first syllable.
 The tears came flooding in quickly after that.Â
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Sirius hadnât seen you for the rest of the day. and that was partly because you refused to come out of the girls bathroom. He had even tried to get Moaning Myrtle to coax you out to talk to him, but still you refused to show your face as you curled up on the bathroom tile. It made his stomach churn.Â
His pit of guilt dug itself deeper as he sat in class. Siriusâ leg bounced restlessly during potions and there was just as much ink on the page at the start of the lesson as there was at the end. The detention he was also given didnât help ease his thoughts. His mind wandered to the worse case scenarios. It was his fault for provoking Snape⌠What if you never wanted to talk to him again? He was up in an instant when the fateful day came to an end and he could return to the common room. He dragged his feet up to the portrait and muttered the words to open it. Every part of him itched to see your face mingling amongst the crowd.Â
At first, he didnât see you. But he managed to make out the crown of your head resting against an armchair tucked away in the corner by the fire. His face softened when he saw the tear tracks staining your face where you had failed to wipe them away properly. Â
You had spent practically the last two hours crying. Everytime the flood stopped, it seemed to start up again. Severus was supposed to be your friend and he had discarded you just like that. The back of your eyes stung, glassy beads threatening to spill again. When you finally braved it enough to make it back to the common room, you couldnât bear to go up to your room. You hardly spent any time there anyway because you spent much of it lounging around in Siriusâ bed with the other maraudersâŚand you were angry and Sirius.Â
No⌠perhaps angry was too strong a word. Hurt. Hurt by his actions and his and Jamesâ thoughtlessness. Being up in your room would have just reminded you of that. So instead you settled down with a book by the fire trying to distract yourself and let the world move around you.Â
It didnât take Sirius very long to reach you. He crossed the common room in a few wide strides.Â
âLove?â Siri asked hesitantly.Â
You peeked up at him meekly. Your eyes were red raw and puffy, it made the boy frown. Sniffing, you wiped your eyes with the hem of your sleeve. âOh.. hi Siri.â you mumbled, not quite meeting his eyes.Â
âOh Lovey. Iâm so sorry.â He melted, sliding onto the arm of the chair beside you.Â
â âts okay. Itâs not your faultâŚâ
Sirius scowled. You were far too kind for your own good. He knew exactly what you had been through and made him sick just thinking that you werenât allowing anyone to take the blame for it. âBut it is, Dove. I shouldnât have provoked him. If I had stopped James and just kept my mouth shut then you wouldnât have had to come over in the first place.â
A tear spilled from your eyes and all of a sudden you broke all over again. âHe was supposed to be my friend, Pads.â You blubbered, voice wavering. âHeâs just like the rest of themâŚâ
Sirius took your hands in his, pressing a kiss to them. âYou didnât deserve any of this, my love. I am so, so sorry.â
âMaybe theyâre rightâŚ.â You trailed off. âMaybe I am worthless. If Sev thinks so too then-â
âShh.â Sirius pressed another kiss to your temple as he scooped you up into his arms. Burying your face into his chest you continued to cry. He trailed his fingers over your back. âYouâve never been more wrong in your life, Lovey. You are worth so much more than that. Youâre kind, brave and not to mention the most beautiful girl in the world. Youâre worth everything to me. Who gives a crap what they think?â
You sniffled, unsure.Â
âI mean it.â
You looked up at him, wiping away your tears; a ghost of a smile on your lips.Â
âI love you.â Siri whispered, kissing you softly.
âI love you too.â You settled your head against his chest, shifting to curl against him.Â
It was there that James and Lily found you later, entwined with each other and sleeping peacefully. Safe within each other's arms.
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James Potter x f!reader
Summary: âHeyâŚâ he murmurs, his voice laced with amusement. âDid you just wink at me?â Your face heats up instantly. âWhat? No! I justââ James moves closer, and before you can escape, his hands are already around youâwarm, firm, secure. And then, he attacks. Kisses. A relentless succession of them.
Warnings: muggle au, est. relationship, fluffy, no use of y/n, james doing a kiss attack, shy!reader
The rain drums softly against the window, streaming down the glass in thin rivulets, distorting the view outside. The apartment is warm and lit by a discreet lamp, casting soft shadows over the furniture. Youâre sitting on the kitchen counter, your feet swinging in the air, your hands wrapped around your teacup, soaking in the warmth it offers. Thereâs something comforting about this silence, broken only by the ticking of the clock on the wall and the occasional rustle of the newspaper forgotten on the table.
And then, he speaks.
âDid you know that if you close both eyes, you canât see anything?â
You blink, lifting your gaze from the tea and meeting his, blue and full of mischief behind the lenses of his glasses. James is leaning against the doorframe, a half-smile tugging at his lips, his black hair in perfect chaos over his forehead. He looks absolutely pleased with himself, as if heâs having fun at the expense of a secret you havenât discovered yet.
âOf course,â you reply, arching an eyebrow. âEveryone knows that.â
âAh, but if you close just one...â He leans slightly forward, âYou can still see everything.â
The sentence hangs between you, and without thinking too much, you close one eye, testing the logic.
In the next second, you realize the mistake.
James lets out a low chuckle, and the glint in his eyes intensifies in a dangerous way. He pushes off the doorframe and advances slowly, his steps feline, his posture too relaxed to be innocent.
âHey...â he murmurs, his voice laced with amusement. âDid you just wink at me?â
Your face heats up instantly.
âWhat? No! I justââ
But thereâs no room for explanations.
James moves closer, and before you can escape, his hands are already around youâwarm, firm, secure. One arm wraps around your waist, pulling you forward until your knees bump against the sides of his hips. The other slides up to your cheek, his thumb brushing lightly over your heated skin.
You smell him, that mix of woody soap and something purely James. And then, he attacks.
Kisses. A relentless succession of them.
First, one on the high point of your cheek. Then, another near the corner of your mouth, then another and another, until he traces an entire path across your flushed skin. You let out a weak protest, a breathless laugh escaping before you can contain it.
âJamieââ
âNo, no,â he murmurs against your skin, his voice slightly muffled. âThis wonât go unnoticed.â
âI wasnât flirting!â
He pulls back just enough to look into your eyes, his expression absolutely delighted.
âAh, so only I can flirt?â
You open your mouth, but heâs already smiling that impossible smile, the one that makes your heart stumble.
âGood to know,â he says, and then heâs back, nipping lightly at your flushed cheek before pressing a longer kiss there. You feel his lips curve against your skin.
Your chest tightens in a dizzying way, in a way you canât quite describe.
Itâs always like this.
James, whole, intense. He loves as if he doesnât know how to love any other way. With everything he has, with everything he is.
You, on the other hand, feel small in the face of it. Not in a bad way. But because James lights up everything around him, and youâre not quite sure how you deserved so much.
The shyness still warms your face, but you donât resist when he starts covering your face with kisses again, laughing between each one. Your hands slide into his black hair, your fingers digging in as he finally gives you a break, resting his forehead against yours.
Heâs smiling against your skin, that smile you feel more than see, and his chest rises and falls in a rhythm that matches yours.
James sighs, dragging his nose lazily across your face before murmuring against your cheek, âDid you know Iâm all yours?â
Your heart stumbles.
He doesnât say it with the intention of being dramatic. James never says anything halfway, never loves halfway. The sentence slips from his lips with so much truth, so much certainty, that you feel your chest tighten. You feel something blooming inside you, something thatâs always been there but now pulses with more strength.
Maybe itâs the fact that he always takes the initiative, always breaks down your barriers with that tireless, charming way of his.
And maybe, just maybe, you want to surprise him this time.
The idea takes shape before you can talk yourself out of it.
With a hesitant but determined movement, you lean in and press your lips to his cheek.
He freezes for a second, his blue eyes wide behind his glasses, his mouth slightly open as if heâs trying to formulate a sentence that never comes.
You almost pull back, almost shrink away from the sudden impulse, but then you see his expression. Itâs rare to see him like this, speechless, without a ready response on the tip of his tongue.
Your chest warms.
So, before your courage disappears, you kiss him again.
With a touch of boldnessâthe most you can musterâyou scatter a trail of kisses across his face, following the same path he traced on yours. The curve of his jaw, his chin, the spot just below his ear. Your shyness makes your skin burn, but something about seeing James so visibly affected encourages you.
And when you return to his cheek, nipping lightly, he lets out a low sound, a mix of a laugh and a sigh.
âYou...â he stammers, looking absolutely amazed. âDid you just bite me?â
You nod, a little uncertain, and James... well, James melts.
Literally.
His body sags against yours, his arms tightening around your waist, and he hides his face in your neck, laughing as if youâve just completely destroyed him.
âAh, thatâs not fair,â he murmurs, his voice muffled against your skin. âI wasnât prepared.â
You feel his smile there, his lips pressed against your neck, and before you know it, youâre smiling too.
âNow you know how I feel,â you whisper, and James lets out a dramatic groan, as if heâs been struck in the heart.
âNo,â he says, lifting his face again. His hands slide back to your face, his eyes shining as if heâs just discovered something new and fascinating. âThat was worse. You have no idea what you just did to me.â
âJamieââ
Suddenly, and before you can react, he grabs your cheeks firmly. The gentle pressure pushes them together until your lips form a forced pout.
James smiles. Beautiful, mischievous, absolutely enchanted.
âAh, what a precious thing,â he murmurs, his voice tinged with an almost exaggerated fondness. He studies your face for a second, his eyes shining, before lowering his head and lightly biting your lower lip trapped between your pinched cheeks.
You squirm in his hands, trying to escape the trap, but he holds your face a little longer before finally releasing your cheeks, his thumbs gently brushing over your warm skin as he watches every detail.
James is always watching.
All the time.
And he never gets tired.
His hands stay there, holding your face with an almost exaggerated care, as if he wants to memorize the feeling. He rests his forehead against yours, and the touch is lazy, comfortable.
âIâm officially a lost man,â he says, so close that itâs impossible to tell where his breath ends and yours begins. âYou could ask me for anything right now, and Iâd do it without hesitation. My heart? Take it. My dignity? Gone. My soul? Well, I think itâs been yours for a long time.â
You laugh, and James looks absolutely delighted by the sound.
He watches you, and thereâs something in his eyes that makes your breath falter.
âCould you kiss me again?â he asks, and his voice is low, almost hesitant.
Your face burns, but you nod, and when your lips meet his skin again, James closes his eyes and lets out a satisfied sigh.
#james potter fanfiction#james potter x y/n#james potter x you#james potter x reader#muggle au#fluffy#writers on tumblr#fanfiction#romance#reader insert#no use of y/n#james potter drabble
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"Oi, mate, you're getting a bit creepy over there" Remus punctuated his statement with a kick to James's ankle. A low blow, literally. James shrieked a little and grabbed at his foot.
"Barely. That guy's the creepy one" He nodded over to a guy stood at the bar, at least 20 feet away from Regulus, simply looking at Regulus and Sirius dancing. "Does it not piss you off? Guys looking at them in such a... predatory way?" James wafted his hands around as if that would help him put across his point any better.
"Not really. I know Sirius is hot, so it's always gonna happen. Besides I know he can handle himself if anyone goes too far. Obviously I don't love it, but I just let it be I guess" Remus shrugs nonchalantly. James wished he could be as chilled out as Remus, but he just couldn't. The fire in his chest simply would not die down and before he knew it he was knocking back the rest of his rum and coke before pushing himself up from the booth they were sat at.
He quickly covered the 15 or so feet that he was away from Regulus before grabbing him by the hips and spinning him into his chest. "Sorry pads, stealing this one for a bit." Sirius only looked mildly bewildered before he shrugged and went to where Remus was in the booth.
"What the hell?" Regulus asked, pulling back so that he could actually look at James.
"Nothing!" James answered too defensively. "I just wanted to dance with you."
He spun Regulus around again, earning a hit to the chest and a mumbled "you're gonna make me motion sick if you don't cut it out mister". James ground lightly into Regulus's arse, keeping both hands firmly planted on his hips.
Regulus hummed softly, tangling his fingers in the back of James's hair whispering "what's this really about?"
"Guys kept staring at you. Didn't like it." James pouted, shoving his face into Regulus's neck to pepper kisses up and down his neck.
"You're an idiot" Regulus smiled, grabbing James's left hand and entwining their fingers before grinding back into him.
"Your idiot." James reminded him.
"Of course baby. You're my idiot. All mine." He placed a quick kiss on James's palm before carrying on dancing, both ignoring everyone else but each other.
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The Alchemy | Part One
NFL Bucky x reader au
Word Count: 2.8k
Warnings: Angst, fluff,
A/N: I only have one more chapter of Invisible to post so ima get this new series out there. I plan to alternate with this one and Say Don Go! Also im Canadian, ive never watched football in my life before Taylor Swift & Travis Kelce so bare with me, Im a hockey girl đđ¤Ł
ALSO WOW another ts inspired fic what are the odds lmaoooo
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The stadium buzzed with energy, every seat packed with fans decked out in the teamâs deep blue and silver. Flags waved, chants echoed, and the floodlights bathed the field in an electric glow. The scoreboard flashed 20-24. Fourth quarter. Six seconds left on the clock.
Bucky Barnes stood on the field, his cleats dug into the turf as his breath came in steady bursts. His number 17 jersey clung to him, streaked with sweat and dirt, but his focus was absolute. Across from him, defenders crouched low, their eyes locked on him. Everyone in the stadium knew where the ball was going. The golden boy, the clutch player, the one who could pull miracles out of thin air.
At the line of scrimmage, Steve Rogersânumber 18, the quarterbackâbarked out commands, his voice cutting through the noise like a blade. âGreen 18! Green 18! Set!â His hand hovered under center, waiting for the snap.
Next to Steve, Sam Wilsonânumber 78, the running backâgrinned as he looked to his left. âHope youâre ready to make me look good, Barnes,â Sam called to Bucky, his voice tinged with a mix of adrenaline and humor.
Bucky smirked, glancing over his shoulder. âAlways am, Wilson. Try to keep up.â
The ball snapped.
Time slowed, the roar of the stadium dimming to a dull hum in Buckyâs ears. He exploded off the line of scrimmage, his legs pumping as he darted past the first defender. His route was a perfectly calculated arc, his sharp cut leaving his opponent scrambling in his wake.
Steve dropped back, his eyes scanning the field, calm and composed as chaos erupted around him. The offensive line was holdingâbarely. Sam sprinted out to the right, dragging a defender with him and creating just enough space for Bucky to hit his mark.
âBuck!â Steveâs shout was clear, even over the thunder of the crowd. The ball left his hands in a perfect spiral, arcing high into the night.
Bucky didnât slow. He kept his eyes on the ball as it sailed through the air, his body moving on instinct. A defender lunged at him, but he sidestepped, his cleats digging into the turf and propelling him forward. Another defender was closing in, but he wasnât fast enough.
Bucky leaped, his arms stretching to meet it. For a split second, the stadium seemed to hold its breath. His fingertips brushed the leather, and then the ball was in his hands, secured against his chest as he crashed to the ground in the end zone.
The buzzer sounded.
The crowd erupted into a deafening roar, the stands a blur of jumping fans and waving flags. Bucky pushed himself to his feet, the ball still clutched tightly in his hands. His teammates swarmed him, slapping his back and tugging at his jersey.
âHell of a catch, Buck!â Steve shouted, pulling Bucky into a quick hug, his grin as wide as the field.
âCouldnât have done it without that throw,â Bucky replied, though his grin didnât quite reach his eyes.
Sam jogged over, shaking his head in mock disbelief. âMan, youâre gonna make the rest of us look bad if you keep pulling off plays like that.â
âJust doing my job,â Bucky quipped, though his voice carried a hint of weariness.
The cameras swarmed, capturing every second of the celebration. Bucky turned, tossing the ball to an equipment manager as he ran a hand through his damp hair. He offered a practiced smile to the crowd, raising his hand in a quick wave. The adrenaline still pounded through his veins, but underneath it all, he feltâŚempty. Moments like this used to mean everything. Now, they were just another show.
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You stood just behind the sidelines, your camera in hand as you captured the final seconds of the game. The stadiumâs energy was almost overwhelming, but you kept your focus, snapping shot after shot as the ball spiraled through the air. The lens followed Bucky, capturing the moment his fingertips grazed the ball and the exact second he pulled it to his chest.
Your thumb hovered over the record button as he hit the ground in the end zone, the buzzer blaring through the stadium. The noise was deafening, but you barely noticed, too focused on capturing the raw emotion of the momentâhis teammates rushing to him, the grin splitting Steveâs face, Sam throwing his hands in the air as he jogged over.
Through the lens, you could see every detail: the streaks of dirt on Buckyâs jersey, the intensity in his eyes, the way he stood a little apart from the celebration even as he was surrounded by his team. You lowered the camera for a moment, watching as he turned to wave at the crowd, that effortless smile on his face.
There was something surreal about seeing him like this, so different yet so familiar, especially after all these years. The golden boy of the NFL, the star of every highlight reel, and yetâŚstill Bucky. You just wondered what he would think if he knew you were tasked with covering his team for the duration of the season.
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The press room buzzed with energy as reporters jostled for position, shoving microphones and cameras toward the front. Bucky sat at the table, effortlessly commanding the room. His jersey clung to him, still damp with sweat, and his dark hair fell messily across his forehead. He leaned forward, resting his forearms on the table, his easy smile lighting up the space.
âBucky, talk us through that final play!â one reporter called out.
Bucky smirked, shaking his head. âItâs not just me. That was all teamwork. The guys up front gave me the space, and Stevie threw a perfect pass, I just had to do my part.â
âJust your part?â another reporter pressed. âThat was your second game-winning catch this season and it just started! Youâre making it look easy out there.â
âWell,â Bucky replied, flashing a quick grin, âitâs never easy, iâve just got a great team behind me. We work hard for moments like that.â
More questions came, volleying back and forth. He answered them all with polished charm, his practiced media persona never faltering. But as the questions wore on, his gaze started to wander, skimming over the sea of faces and microphones. Thatâs when he saw you, his blue eyes did a double take before confusion and shock swam through them.
You were standing off to the side, not pushing to the front like the others. You werenât yelling over the noise or angling for the best shot. You were justâŚthere. Scribbling something into your notebook, head ducked slightly as if you wanted to disappear into the crowd.
Bucky froze for a fraction of a second, the polished grin faltering for the briefest moment before he caught himself. His heart stuttered in his chest, a wave of recognition crashing over him. He blinked, his brain scrambling to catch up. No way. It couldnât be.
You were trying to stay out of the fray while still capturing the scene. Your notebook was a familiar weight in your hands, its pages filling with shorthand notes that youâd polish later. It was your way of staying groundedâyour way of not staring too long at him.
The boy youâd grown up with. The boy who used to challenge you to races down your block, who teased you mercilessly, who knew all your secrets. Seeing him now, years later, as the NFLâs star receiver, felt surreal. Heâd become everything the world expected him to be. And yet, in some strange way, he was still the same.
You ducked your head lower, scribbling furiously to avoid the wave of memories threatening to crash over you. Focus. Professional. Objective. That was your mantra when youâd taken this assignment. You hadnât even known it would be his team until you arrived. Now, all you wanted was to finish your notes and leave to compose yourself fully before he could notice you.
Buckyâs gaze lingered on you, his heart pounding in a way that had nothing to do with the game heâd just played. He said your name softly, testing it on his lips. It felt foreign and familiar all at once. You didnât reactâtoo far away, too focused on your notes.
âHey, Bucky!â another reporter called out. âWhatâs your mindset going into the rest of the season?â
He barely heard the question. His focus was entirely on you now, watching as you slipped your notebook into your bag and adjusted the strap over your shoulder. You were leaving.
âUh, sorry,â he mumbled to the reporter, not bothering to look at them. âI need toâŚâ He trailed off, standing abruptly.
The room went silent for a moment, the reporters exchanging confused glances. âBucky, are youâ?â
âYeah, uh, excuse me,â he muttered, already moving. He left the table, ignoring the murmurs that followed as the cameras swung to track his movements.
His heart stuttered.
âY/N?â he murmured, his voice barely audible over the din. He blinked, half-convinced his mind was playing tricks on him. He tried again, louder this time. âY/N?â
You didnât look up.
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The late summer air clung to your skin, thick and still, like it was trying to hold you in this moment forever. The roof beneath you was rough and familiar, each crack in the shingles a memory. Nights like this always felt infiniteâjust you and Bucky under the stars, talking about everything and nothing. But tonight, that comforting rhythm was broken.
You sat side by side, the glow of the streetlights catching in Buckyâs messy hair. He leaned back on his elbows, that cocky grin you knew so well plastered across his face. âSo,â he said, breaking the silence, âyou wanna go to prom with me next year? You know, as friends or whatever.â
You couldnât help the laugh that escaped, but it sounded hollow even to you. âPromâs not for another year, Bucky. Donât tell me youâre turning into a planner now.â
âWhat can I say?â He shrugged, the grin widening, his confidence practically radiating. âI like to lock down the good ones early.â
You rolled your eyes and gave him a light shove, but your hand lingered on his arm for just a second longer than it should have. He felt it. He always felt it.
âAlright,â he said, his grin fading as he sat up straighter, his piercing blue eyes narrowing in concern. âWhatâs going on? Youâve been weird all night.â
Your fingers twisted together in your lap, your gaze dropping to the shingles. The words felt too heavy to say, but they burned in your chest. You couldnât keep them in any longer.
âIâm moving.â
The silence that followed was suffocating. It stretched between you like the whole world had opened up, and all you could do was stare into the void. When you finally looked at him, his expression was blank, unreadable. That cocky smile youâd always known so wellâit was just gone.
âYouâre lying,â he said, his voice low, almost like a challenge.
You shook your head, your throat tightening. âI wish I was.â
His brows furrowed, the disbelief quickly turning into something sharper. âWhy?â he asked, leaning closer. âYou donât have to go. Youâre almost eighteenâjust stay.â
âBuckyââ
âNo, listen to me,â he cut you off, his words coming fast now, his tone filled with something you rarely heard from him: fear. âYou could stay here. My ma wouldnât care. Hell, sheâd love it. You could move into the basement. You practically live at my house anyway. No one would even notice. You donât have to go.â
The desperation in his voice broke something in you. You had known it would hurt, but seeing him like thisâBucky, who was always so strong, so steadyâwas unbearable.
âI canât stay,â you said softly, the words barely more than a whisper. âI donât have a choice.â
âWhy not?â His voice cracked as he sat up fully, his hands curling into fists against the roof. âAm I not enough for you to stay?â He knew he was being selfish but he was so blind sided he couldn't help it.
The question hit you like a punch to the chest. Your breath caught, and you had to blink hard to keep your vision from blurring. âFuck, Bucky,â you whispered. âOf course, youâre enough. Youâre my best friend. Youâre everything. But my momâŚâ Your voice broke, and you had to take a deep breath before continuing. âSheâs finally leaving him. Bucky, weâre finally getting out.â
His jaw clenched, and his chest rose and fell unevenly as he processed your words. His hands gripped the edge of the roof like it was the only thing keeping him from falling apart. âYour momâŚâ he started, his voice trailing off. Of course, he was happy for her. He knew what it had taken for her to finally leave that asshole. Heâd seen the bruises you never talked about, the way your voice would falter when you mentioned home. Of course, he understood.
But that didnât make it hurt any less. She was taking you away from him, and he couldnât stand it. "What about school? We have one more year left."
"They have schools everywhere Buck..." Your voice was soft and quiet.
For a long moment, neither of you said anything. The night stretched on, heavy and endless. You thought he might fight you on it again, throw out another plan, another reason for you to stay. But instead, he let out a bitter laugh, shaking his head.
âWell,â he said, his voice sharp and hollow, âI guess this is it then.â
âBucky, donât do this,â you pleaded, the words rushing out before you could stop them. âPlease.â
He stood up slowly, brushing off his hands like he was trying to shake off the weight of your words. His expression was unreadable now, his eyes cold and distant in a way youâd never seen before.
âIt was nice while it lasted,â he said, his voice clipped and emotionless. He paused at the edge of the roof, looking back at you one last time. âHey, take care of yourself, alright?â
And then he climbed down the ladder, disappearing into the shadows below.
You didnât call after himâyou couldnât. You just sat there on the roof, staring at the place where heâd been, your heart breaking under the weight of his absence. For the first time, the stars felt impossibly far away.
That was the last time you ever talked to Bucky Barnes.
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You were halfway down the hallway, your footsteps echoing softly in the empty space, when you heard him.
âY/N!â
You froze, halfway down the hallway. The voice was unmistakable nowâstronger, sharper, but undeniably his. Slowly, you turned, and there he was, jogging toward you with an expression you couldnât quite decipher. His broad shoulders filled the space, but it was his eyesâwide and almost boyishâthat sent your heart racing.
âIs this really you?â he asked, stopping just a few feet away. His chest rose and fell as if heâd just run the length of the field. His gaze swept over you, disbelief and something like relief flickering across his face.
You laughed nervously, a sound that came out more like a breathless exhale. âI didnât think youâd recognize me.â
Buckyâs lips parted in a huff of incredulous laughter. âAre you kidding? I could find you in any room.â
The words hung in the air, heavy with meaning. Before you could respond, he closed the distance, wrapping you in a hug so tight it stole the breath from your lungs. For a moment, the world fell awayâthe noise, the cameras, the years. It was just Bucky, holding you like he was afraid youâd disappear. It was like you were kids again, sitting on rooftops and talking about everything under the stars. Holding you in a way where you finally felt safe like nothing or no one could hurt you because you knew these armâs wouldnât.
âHoly shit,â he muttered into your hair. He pulled back just enough to look at you, his hands still on your shoulders. âI havenât seen you in years. What are you doing here? Not that Iâm not happy to see youâIâm justâŚwow.â
You smiled, your heart pounding in your chest. âIâm here to cover the team for the season.â You held up your press badge, a sheepish grin tugging at your lips. âDidnât realize Iâd be covering you.â
Bucky barked a laugh, shaking his head in disbelief. âFate, huh? Guess it wasnât done with us yet.â
You both stood there for a moment, the hallway around you seeming to blur. His thumb brushed against your arm absently, like he was reassuring himself you were real. Finally, he stepped back, a grin tugging at the corners of his mouth.
âIâve got about a thousand questions,â he said, tilting his head. âBut I guess weâve got the whole season to catch up, right?â
âRight,â you replied, the warmth in his eyes making it impossible to think straight. âThe whole season.â
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